Friday, July 20, 2012

"C" is for Church

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"C" was a hard one for me. I had a few ideas. Chaos seemed to fit, but I can't even pinpoint where the chaos starts. Then I realized the only way I break through all the chaos is my little church and my strong faith. So "C" is for church.

I love my little church. The safety and love that it brings into my life. The family I have there, both through faith and through blood. The blessing that have been recieved there. I love it. It's a little one room church on a country road. It looks preety basic, but once inside you realize that the love and spirit flowing through the place is undeniable and beautiful.

I am not preachy in my religion. In fact, I am quite the opposite because I don't feel like a am a perfect Christian. I have a bit of a potty mouth, I lived with my husband before we were married, ect. However, when the going gets tough I tend to stay calm and collected. I have learned to turn my worries over to God and trust that he will guide me. I am thankful for my realtionship with Him  and the fact that i truly know Him

The past two weeks have been difficult. I have prayed more the past two weeks then I have in a long time. My car was trashed and impounded because of a relative. I prayed for the power to fix it, move on and forgive him. I am still working on the forgiving part. Three relatives were in the hospital, one of the passed away. I prayed for healing and closure. My ex-boss, who I actually really admired, passed away. I prayed for his family. My husband's family friend died in a fire. I prayed for her family. When My husband got stressed out and snapped at me, I prayed for his peace and strength for our marriage.

Then, I got to thinking. I haven't been going like I should. I haven't lived perfectly, but God still loves me. He still allows me to see the miracles, the souls saved, the baptisms. He still gives me the strength, love and security I need. That to me is truly amazing.

"C" is for church. I am blessed.


Meredith Hilton said...

what a rough couple weeks! I hope you continue to feel the grace and blessings that God has given you and all of us, And hopefully you'll have more smiles this upcoming week!

Mallory said...

Thank you Meredith

Lisa-Marie Jordan said...

Wow, you've had a rough time! I'm so sorry! I hope things improve for your and your family and friends. God bless!