Thursday, March 28, 2013

Throw back Thursday.

I am linking up for Throwback Thursday. I am excited, but I don't know of the world is ready for my throwback pics.

Alright here we go. High school. 

That's me on the left. This was probably Junior year and we were part of the Cinderella musical. 
Too much cool? 
I thought so. 
We look like baby hoes with our cake make up and ringlets. 

It makes you wonder how I had a boyfriend.
But then I remembered Chris looked like this at the time... 

Sorry for the crappy phone photo, but look at that mushroom hair. 
Lovely, huh?
And yes we have been together off and on since high school. 

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Monday, March 25, 2013

Then HE gets baby fever...

Hey guys. It's me, Mrs. Confused. Always confused.

So if you read the other day you know I was freaking out about not having kids. The hubs wanted to wait, P.C.O.S says no, I don't know if I will ever be ready...

I finally came to the decision to feel at peace. I decided to give it to God. I thought I would just be me, continue to compete with the horses, because Lord knows that stops when you have a kid to support, and I would just enjoy life.

Without kids I have money to buy clothes and cars and horses. I can travel and relax. I mean this could be a good thing. I and I though, "hmm... wait a while and be selfish awhile longer..."

Then we are in bed about to doze off and hubs says, "I was thinking, I think 4 kids would be perfect. So we should probably have one in the next year." My reaction...

And then... 

I am so confused. I need a day or two to process. 

I mean agreeing to one would be cool... 4? He is insane. And I was just coming to terms with waiting. So why does he think it's okay to change his mind like some people change underwear. It's like he doesn't get that there are huge risk, and decisions and emotions attached to this. Ugh... I need wine and a BFF night. And tissue.

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Thursday, March 21, 2013


First let me warn you. I feel like this today...

And a little like this...

I usually get so depressed during the winter, but somehow I made it this year. I stayed strong. Then this week hit and some fears and depression crept in. I feel like I need to get them out before they take over.

My main fear...
Not having kids. It's so strange I have always been the one to say, " eh I don't have time for them right now." Then my cousin had Ms. Baby and I found out my younger sister is expecting and it hit me. I am almost 25 and there are no children in sight. My feminine issues are alive and well. The cysts are still attacking and I don't know if children are even possible. What if they aren't?

Hubs says he doesn't care. We can adopt. I can collect dogs or horses.... we don't have to have kids. But  maybe I want them. Hell, I don't even know if I want them. Some days baby fever is awful and takes over. Some days I am glad I can go ride my horses and drink wine all night. Maybe I just feel pressured because everyone else seems to be taking the step to parenthood. I feel like maybe it makes me less of an adult because I am not taking that leap yet. I feel like I will never be 100% ready.

 I am so conflicted and so confused and so emotional. I am sick of crying and feeling empty over it. I am hoping this is mainly PMS. Our plan is to be financially ready, house paid off... Now, my plan is to let God take over. I hope peace comes into my week.

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Wednesday, March 20, 2013

Possible Casual Easter Look

Easter and Spring are just around the corner! We usually have a very casual breakfast then play "Easter Bunny" and hide eggs for the little ones in Chris's family. Then we head down to my family's gathering for a late lunch and hide more eggs and my sister the photographer takes a trillion photos.

Possible Casual Easter Look
My goal is to be comfy but still look good. I am loving the coral that is being splashed around and I love how the blue makes it pop. I need to find away to copy this look ASAP! What do ya'll think?

VILA lace crop top
$21 -

Paul joe sister

Woven flat

Coral necklace

Retro jewelry

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

This is what I do...

I have talked about my love of horses and the fact that I compete. I have shown a few pictures of my horses, but today I want to show you exactly what I do.

I compete and train in several disciplines. The first one is my favorite. It's an art and an OCD person's dream because it is about accuracy and perfection.

Dressage. In the upper levels, we make our horses dance.

And one of my other favorties...


I also ride Morgan Hunters. It's a little more intense, because sometimes there are 30 of us cantering in an arena together in herd.


Grand Nationals and the World Championship Show. 
I still get goosebumps and tears in my eyes, because I can remember the adrenaline walking into the arena. 
Can't believe I made it that far! 

So that's what I do. It's what keeps me sane.  I have to take 2 weeks off because of this stupid bronchitis and it is killing me! 

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Monday, March 18, 2013

You're Meaghan Me Crazy Giveaway

Today Meghan from You're Meaghan Me Crazy is announcing her big birthday giveaway,  which I am apart of! Enter the giveaway and stop by and wish her a happy birthday!


I am so excited to announce my first ever giveaway!  If you follow me on twitter or instagram you might have noticed me desperately asking for people to contribute to a group giveaway in celebration of my birthday next week!

I got some pretty amazing and beautiful people to help give you awesome people some kick ass prizes!
too many nouns?
click on a beautiful face to see their blog.
and because I like to share the love we will be having two winners.

 1st Place

$20 sephora gift card from linny’s vault
easter basket full of goodies from lehmann laughter
$20 etsy gift card for jonikay52
$15 amazon gift card from maurer power
$15 starbucks gift card from you’re meaghan me crazy
2 months of gold ad space on daffodils and lace
1 month of loved ad space from you’re meaghan me crazy
5 redbox rental codes from busy as a honey bee
$115.50 value

2nd Place
$20 target gift card from sweet home amy
$20 elf gift card from you’re meaghan me crazy
$10 amazon gift card form maurer power
$10 starbucks gift card from you’re meaghan me crazy
1 months of gold ad space on daffodils and lace
1 month of liked ad space from you’re meaghan me crazy
3 redbox rental codes from busy as a honey bee
1 month of letter ad space on jo my gosh
$59.50 value

good luck!

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Friday, March 15, 2013

Do you have the luck of the Irish? (Giveaway)

Hello ladies! 
Today my sponsors and I are announcing the March Giveaway! The ladies are wonderful so please check them out and let them know you visited.

Daliene at Daliene's Alamo Adventures will be giving away 3 months of large ad space! 

Terri at Rambling Momma will be giving away a sashay scarf of any color! 

Chelsea at Olive and Ivy will be giving away a custom post signature!

I will be giving away 2 months of Gold ad Space! 

Good luck! 

a Rafflecopter giveaway

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Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Oh How Pinterest... Foodie style

I have not linked up for "Oh, How Pinteresting" in awhile.

Lately, I have been looking for healthy recipes to replace some of favorite foods. I have not been disappointed!

Cornbread stuffing... I love stuffing and cannot wait to try this at the next family dinner.
Source: Skinny Miss via Skinny Miss on Pinterest
Sweet tea. This southern girl has missed sweet tea. Like I have had dreams about sweet tea. 
Source:Skinny Miss via Skinny Ms. on Pinterest

And then there is pizza. My favorite food ever. 
Source: Closet Cooking Via Rachel on Pinterest
A little inspiration...

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Never Trust a Min Pin

I am posting this post as a warning.  If you own a Min Pin or ever come in contact with one remember, they are just pretending to be an ally. Learn from my story.

The min pin that tricked me is, of course, Lacey.

Sorry it's blurry, This is one of her baby pictures (5 months) when we thought she was so innocent.

Okay so last night, I was really craving something sweet and I didn't want to completely blow the diet so I decided to sneak into the kitchen for a marshmallow or 2. I have learned that one marshmallow will cure any sweet craving I have and I figure they are better than a whole bowl of ice cream or a candy bar. Lacey follows me into the kitchen and begs. This is the conversation we had. Yes I talk to my dog.

Lacey: Growls
Me: "Lace, I am hiding from your dad because he thinks he has more self- control than me. Go away."
        This diet has become a competition. Anything we do together becomes a game, I swear.
Lacey: Jumps up and down and whimpers
Me: " Look, these things aren't good for me, so I am sure they are awful for you."
Lacey: blank stare and a growl.
          At this point she is drawing too much attention to the kitchen. 
Me: "Fine you can have one! One! But eat it in here so your dad doesn't know what we are up to."

That little brat marched over to the doorway to the living room (she stayed in the kitchen) and smacked as loud as she could right where he could see her. I thought we had an understanding. Nope.

Don't trust a min pin. Ever.

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Friday, March 8, 2013

Butting Heads

I wrote this awhile ago and never hit publish. I think I guard the horse side of me because it is one of the most important things I have.

So here it is. This will give you insight on the equestrian side of me. You can see where my passion lies.
You might not get all the lingo, but still....

Meet Raffany ...

Why is he running around with his nose stuck out and his ears pinned back? 
He is stubborn and has an attitude. 

This horse and I butt heads and argue more than any horse I have ever ridden. He will kick out at my leg, trot slow, buck at the canter, grit his teeth. Ugh... the list goes on and on. The vet and dentist have both looked at him. They just laugh and say it's not a health problem, it's a personality problem. He is just as lovely on the ground. 

So why do I ride this horse that clearly is not the partner for me?

He loves kids and is one of our best lesson horses. He is a saint for them! Occasionally I ride him to remind him that he has to work and to keep him toned. And also, he has the worlds bounciest trot and it's great to work on my sitting when I get sloppy. 

Another reason... On those days when we agree to disagree, it is the most amazing thing you have ever seen. He gets happy and relaxed. His lead changes and leg yields are effort less. He comes round and stretches to the contact. His shoulder- ins and haunches-in are flawless. It is breathtaking and I credit this horse for some of my best and most successful rides.

Sometimes it's those horses. The ones who challenge you. The ones that make you wonder what you are going to get that day. The ones that don't seem to be meant for you, that actually end up helping you the most. Through the good rides and the bad, I wouldn't trade a single one. 

I love you Raffany, you big grouch. 

I think love is the same way. It's the people that challenge the most that help you the most.

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Thursday, March 7, 2013

Healthy Taco Salad

Lately my go to lunch has been a healthy version of a  taco salad. It's a super easy work lunch and it tastes amazing.


Ground chicken 
Bell peppers 
The following are to taste... I like mine spicy so I put a lot of Red pepper flakes and chili podwer
Red pepper flakes
Black pepper
Chili powder

Brown the ground chicken with the spices and then throw in the bell peppers and sautee them. 

Then when I get to work I throw it all on a bed of lettuce with a corn tortilla cut into strips. Top it with a low fat cheese. (I use Weight Watcher jalepeno cheese sticks)

The whole lunch is 335 calories. Amazing!! It is so good and so filling. 

Let me know if you try it! 

Monday, March 4, 2013

The Craftroom/blogging room

Hello loves!

Today I started thinking about how we all blog in our own little nooks and crannies but we never actually get to see where each other blogs.

I like to be able to put a name to a face. Take it a step further and a bit more stalkerish... I like to be able to imagine people in their own little environment. So I figure eventually post by post I can let you visit me in my home.

First stop, the office/craftroom. When I want to feel important I tell the hubs I will be in my blogging room doing official blog business.

One thing that I insisted on was a wall full of bookshelves. I have always loved reading and think that private libraries are romantic. I am a nerd.

I loved the idea of a nice open work space that 2 people could use. I also needed a way to fill this huge room. So we put the desk in the middle and got 2 chairs.

Excuse the mess. It was a hardcore crafting day!
I am an organizer. I have binders with receipts for each year. I have binders for each dog and horse's medical records. I have binders for the blog, our medical records and recipes... the list goes on and on. I needed a place to store the binders without them taking up space on my bookshelves.

Enter, the Pottery Barn Hutch... 
It needs stuff. And I needed to clean up from painting. Oops. I am a real human, ya'll.

Then I decided I really needed a print station. It needed to have drawers to hold my different stationary but fit the room. My mom thrifted an antique dresser, we painted it black and I fell in love. With a piece of furniture. It happens.

I am eventually switching out the handles and knobs on this. One is missing but it's still a charming piece. 

Then there is the view from the backside of the house which is where this room is located. It looks like this... 
Casper aka my little "cappy roo" ans yes I yell that from the 3rd story window to get his attention in between blog posts.
Is he not perfect?

Eventually I am adding a crafting table, but for now it works. 
Where do you blog?
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Friday, March 1, 2013

Weekend, horses, diet, me


Dear weekend, Last weekend was spent working super late hours, so this weekend I plan on staying in bed, blogging and playing with my puppies. It is supposed to be super cold, so this plan is sounding better and better.
- Lazy as hell

Dear horses, I have had blast this week. Re-training you little ones, working with the more experienced ones and snuggling with my retired one. This week has reminded me why I put in the hours in the cold weather and rain. 
- Horse crazy

Dear diet, three pounds from our goal and we are stalling. And the weight loss coach gets mean when we are at a standstill. Seriously, can we just lose the 3 pounds so I can stabilize and finish the program? 
- Frustrated

Dear me, I am proud of you. You have kept up with the diet, 2 bible studies, financial boot camp and a solid riding program. Where did this new driven you come from? 
- Focused lady